Another day of revision, gawd my life is so boring right now. I can't wait until I have time to run again. My weight just will not move down. So frustrating. I 've been eating so little and then I will have a 1000cal food day and bang my weight is where it started. Why oh why can't I get out of this endless cycle. Hopefully once I am home in Ireland I can do more exercise. The weather better be brilliant this summer.!
I bought caffeine pills because I am sick of being tired and having no energy and having to eat to compensate. It is only a trial run, so we will see how it works. I got them off ebay so you never know. I'll keep an update on how they make me feel, I will probably post at the end of this as an additional or something.
I feel so guilty so I must write this. I had such a bad day yesterday, I couldn't concentrate on my work, I got little revision done and I ate loads. Probably around 1200cals if not more. I felt so bad I even made myself run at half 11 last night to the 24 hour tesco to get cereal. The run was about 15 mins and then a 25 minute walk back. I felt dizzy and sick, but I have no idea why because it wasn't like I was lacking in food. If I was I would have welcomed the sick dizzy feeling as it would have meant I needed food. Eurgh, just eurgh!
I decided to break routine and get new cereal. It's honey nut kellogs and only 120cals per 100g so add 10cals for my skimmed milk. Plus my usual coffee which is 5cal. Breakfast time will be 130cal but that's okay because the new cereal is yummy.