Urgh, all my hard work ruined!! One stupid week at home with everyone and I am back where I started. I need to have more self control. I need to stop eating. I need to exercise more. I need to puke more. I need to revise. I need to do my assignments. I need to get a job. I need money. Why is my life so fucking depressing right now. Oh yea I know, because I can't control my own will. I am weak. I must be stronger! Yes that picture really is me!
On a brighter note, I bought the book, 'wasted' by Marya Hornbacher. Hoepfully it will keep me busy and inspire me to stop being a pig. I'm back alone for a day then I am away to spain for a week. Doubt I'll eat much there because I don't really like the foods there. Alcohol will be the killer. I don't even want to go, I want to stay here and starve and be alone, but I don't want to leave one of the girls alone because we only went because the other one was going. We are going with a team and most of them are your usual orange blobs with big hair and loud voices Intriguing. Anyway much loves as always. xx
DietCokePlease xxx
Don't get yourself down like that :( Tomorrow is another day. I know you don't want to go but hope you have fun atleast. Take care x
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