Ok well, today has been totally fucked up!! All because of one stupid Mc Donalds. Okay so first of all my day was going well. I didn't sleep last night at all, I was busy doing work for uni. I'm not behind or anything, I just want to be on top of things. So I did a whole assignment in one night. At 8am I grabbed my usual cereal and milk. 120cals and my coffee. 5cals. Then at about 11ish I had a nice cappuccino. 16cals. All was good until I got home from the library. I craved beans! Of all things beans. So I ended up gobbing two waffles and a whole tin of beans. Not good. Totally ruined my ABC diet, especially on my first day. This just wouldn't do so naturally I spent the next ten minutes over the toilet. I added about 50cals incase any was consumed. Then as I had another assignment I wanted to get out of the way I needed brain food. I opted for a tuna and sweetcorn sandwich at 318cals. So far so good, approx the total cal would be 509cals. Perfect Right? NO! I couldn't even stop my fat arm reaching out and buying and eating a dairy milk bar at 260cals!! Eurgh FML! I was in company so I couldn't even get rid of it when the awful feeling of guilt and self hatred came. So you know what I did, I fucking drank a large chocolate milkshake from mcdonalds at 530cals, I deserved to be this fat, I deserve to suffer the consequences of eating a dairy milk bar. Then came my worst binge in a while to top the day off. I was already feeling crappy, so I thought why the fuck not. Big Mac, Fries and Diet Coke. I ate it so fast, I couldn't even breathe afterwards. Of course unable to let this major binge join the hips, I purged. =[ 5Ocals added to be safe. Day 1= FAILURE. Total: 1389cals. FTW. I am so going to pay for this tomorrow! Feeling shit.